major depression

ok wells im hit with depression and anxiety and i am getting overwelmed very easy, but steps i can take to ease thkngs, stuff has to get done, so i make sure do just do what i gotta, i make a list of things, and that seems easier to follow, i woldnt mind going back to a therepyst, but i thinks im past there help, plus i dont like mine and the fact i have to chase him down, to start over grrrrrrrrr, so many things seem out of my reach

someone close to my heart whio lives far away, will not take my help, although she lives in hell, i offered her the world, a apt here near me, ill furnish it and get her started on A NEW LIFE, yea life is real bad for her, but i just wish she would let me help, she may be beyond that, we have been close a few years atleast, and just wells, grrrrrrrr ok im ranting now, i just want her with me is all, to keep her safe and give her a chance at a new life, but if it hasnt happned will it ever grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.........ok my thoughts are leaving my head, ill post more laters

Oh Ed it's easy for me to say but I'll say it............you must move on. I know we've "talked" about this before and it seems like a no win situation. I hate it that you're hurting like this. You're a good guy Ed and you deserve some one who wants to be with you

and for some reason i cant find her........geeze 42 years old, youd think id find her by now, i thiught i did once or twice.............i dont even know how to go about finding anyone anymnore.

I think it just happens. I don't think we find anyone when we are actually looking.
An example is:
I got married in 1970. It only lasted four years. Many bad relationships then for years.
I moved to Houston and went out after work for a drink.
I turned and saw him.
Boom, just like that.
He was the one I had been dreaming of since I was a young girl.
We got married a few months later and that was 30 years ago.
I wasn't looking for anyone and I had sworn off men but it happened in that unexpected, unsought chance encounter :)
It can happen and I know that there is someone out there for everyone, someone who is also looking or dreaming and wham, it happens :)

so your saying just let it happen, and not try to make it happen, cause if i go on one more stupid dating sight online grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i tell ya, i have met more buttheads on there than anyhwere else.

No, Ed, I have 11 years of buttwipes on you! Butthead is my cat's name by the way so use it kindlly please! hehe! It is said there is someone for everyone, just stop looking and they are there. Since I have been sick, John has come back into my life and has been more loving, helpful and kind than I could have asked for; and he doesn't even mind that he has to be tested.....He just wants to take care of me and make sure I am going to be ok....it is enough to make me cry. He is even giving me money for the natural remedy so I can try it. Who would have though it back when I broke up with him and though it was over.... that he would still love me and be here now....

hmmmmm


i guess ill leave it up to fate then




dear fate, you think you could send one with a mohawk?

hehehehehe or even a deadhead would be nice


ok me explain, i was cross between jerry garcia and sid viciuos

a hippy dude and a punk and i loved the extreme of both worlds, but where all those girls i know of where did they go?


hehehehe.........ok she dont have ti have a mohawk


can i settle for her being irish?

Oh to have an Irish lassie Ed.................hang in there friend. Mrs. Right will come along. But why?

why? cause it sucks to be alone, hmmmmm maybeee i should contact dating sights in ireland and meet someone than fly her here, ahhhhh yes i go nuts for an acent from soneone back home :bounce:

Well I'm Irish and I was a hippie, still am, but I'm too old for you :roll:

awwwww hehehehe im sure ill find her, im gonna stop looking, maybee then she will apear.......

2 girl freinds ago, my ex was 51 i was 41, no ones ever to old heheheheheheh


ever think bout getting a mohawk?





hehehehhe

Ed you're too funny. I wish I was older

No LOL
I like mohawks, but not on me :)
I wish you luck and I know you will find someone because just when you think there is no one, there they are and you will know it when it happens :)

oh i know she is somehwere, i just hope i havent missed her..........

deltaelise wrote:

I wish you luck and I know you will find someone because just when you think there is no one, there they are and you will know it when it happens :)

Couldn't of said it any better myself!!

wells then ill leave it up to god and fate and stop worrying bout it then, maybee it is better to be alone now than in a relationship ill hate, better to wait till the right one comes along :D

Yes leave it to fate Ed. Who knows? Maybe you'll be in Mickey D's and see the love of your life :D Don't jump into anything, and I mean that literally :twisted:

im in trouble if she has an irish accent mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

No Ed that's a good thing ;)

heheheh, yes, and from county cork ireland hehehehehe............thats where my irish part comes from, grandpas side n ways

"heheheh, yes, and from county cork ireland hehehehehe............thats where my irish part comes from, grandpas side n ways"

OMG! That is where my family is from!! Too funny! Another Irish relative!