ok, ive been in a major depression, hard fighting this one, constant dread and worry, they did up my depakote and listening to my mellow music has helped, alot of dead and floyd, anywho rocky gets me up at 6 am grrrrrrrrrrr he has to go bad, my back hurts im tired ok, so we get dressed and go out grrrrrrrrrrr ice ice ice ok 20 min later we go bacvk in, he still is acting weird, im like what? tell me? so i was like ok, lets go back out, he aparently wasnt done, not his fault, the ice and snow geeeeeeeeeeeze ok so i deceided to go into work at noon, the bus scedule runs ever few hours, so ok i took rocky out 2 time4s in case of his belly so i get in bout 1155 no time for me to use the bathroom grrrrrrrrrrrr so ok, i go to the bus stop, of course its late i gotta go potty grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr im one second from saying screw it and going home, but i need to go to work, so ok, im in default mode now, i start saying my rosary, wen all else fails, i act alot like my grandpa, im broke, beyond broke, belly is hhurting and this year has been really bad, so after my 10th hail mary this guy is walking by and says are you waiting for the bus, i said yup, he said here , its a free pass for one ride, im like omg, so i thanked him and now this has freed up 250 i can spend for milk, as it turns out i got paid today but still, in my hell, and saying all kinda of prayers and all of a sudden i was like wow, a free bus pass thing, and for him to just stop and take time to give itn to me, weird!!!
but i know angels are around, i feel them at my worst they find a way in my life, not saying he was an angel, but maybee an angel gave him the idea to give me a free bus pass, so im trying to biuld on that and be thankful
29th January 2009, 19:01
